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Hi! I’m Marissa

I lost 90 lbs on the ketogenic diet and gained 40 lbs back. I started this blog to finally hold myself accountable while losing the rest of my weight. This is my story!

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Something I’ve been evaluating in my life as of late,is my need to have a tight grip on everything. The need for control. Where does it stem from? How do I manage it? I’ve spent so much time and energy clenching my fists so nothing gets away, yet it’s keeping all that’s meant for me from getting in. Why do we spend so much time swimming against the current? FEAR. Fear of all that is unknown. If you think about what happens when a person is drowning, they are put in a situation where they have absolutely no control. Our instinct, our fight or flight trigger, tells us to kick, flail, and grasp for anything we can get a hold of. Losing a loved one can feel the same way. We go into survival mode , but if we just let go and surrender to the current - go with the flow - we stop drowning! To surrender isn’t passive; on the contrary it requires diligence and commitment. It requires DEEP trust. Trust that can only be cultivated by you. Trust that when you free yourself from the feeling of restriction - everything will fall into place as it is meant to. I can think back on a multitude of occasions where it would have served me better to surrender. Right now, as I write this, I am overthinking a situation in my life - What did I do wrong now? Was it something I said again? Tell me I’m not as forgettable as your silence makes me feel... All this energy spent fighting the current; drowning! When all I need and should do is surrender. Let go and let God. “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” It blows my mind when I think that Jesus felt, hurt, cried and drowned just as I have. He endured the ultimate surrender and overcame for me. So, how do we surrender? How do we commit to uncurling our hands and be open? Willingly. 🙏🏼

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You don’t have to be perfect to be amazing. You’re imperfect. You have flaws. But that doesn’t mean there is anything wrong with you. You have old habits to break; new behaviors/ideas/perspectives to embody. It will take courage. It will take time. Keep going - with grace and gratitude, you’re becoming who you were meant to be. 💕

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Part of my routine now has been relaxation, meditation, and HydroMassage. I’ve also been practicing affirmations in the morning and evening before bed. I’ve been ferociously protecting my mental health and making sure I’m practicing holistic and authentic self care. I’m in a place of healing and my goal is to come out of this with grace. One of my mantras this new year is, “You will repeat what you don’t repair.” Take time to repair and heal. 🙏🏼

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Perhaps figuratively, but no pain - no gain. We must grow through what we go through. I’ve been struggling emotionally for a while - some days are good, some days are bad. BUT I PUSH THROUGH. It’s hard and I wouldn’t expect anything less, but no one will ever be able to say I gave up! I am a fighter and a survivor. 💪🏼

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Did a 30 min interval run today and tore up my heels! But, no pain, no gain. Treating myself to homemade coconut shrimp in the air fryer with some SF apricot preserves. Remember, nothing changes if nothing changes. One of my goals is to stop comparing myself to others - no one in the entire world can do a better job of being you than YOU! 👌🏼

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It’s time to let you go. As hard as it is for me to do, I know that is what’s best for us. I am taking back the key to my happiness that I put in your pocket. Our co-dependence must finally come to an end. The day dreaming, the running in place has finally killed my spirit.
Right now, it is imperative that I have healthy habits, a positive mindset and unconditional friendship. I have lived under your thumb for far too long.

You are no longer serving me.
I have endured incredible loss at your expense. You have become someone I don’t know. A stranger. I feel scared, unsure, and abandoned. You have broken me. I loved you, and you destroyed me.
For years, you have cultivated a safety net that I felt all too comfortable in. You have taken away my opportunities for self-growth and true love.
I am more than what has happened to me. I am more than what you think of me. Most importantly, I am more than the impossible standards you have held me to.

I want you to know I am strong because you showed me weakness. I am beautiful because you pointed out my ugliness. I am wise because you taught me recklessness.
I am a lover because you loathed me.I am fearless because you tried to steal my courage.
I am happy because you gave me sadness.

Maybe one day we’ll meet again & reconcile our departure. Maybe one day the finality will all be clear. Until then, I will live my best life without you in it. I will live with both feet in the future all by myself.
I will pray for you. That you understand the time has come for me to heal; to become the woman God has always intended for me. I need to be happy on my own. I need to be self-sufficient in my own joy. There’s no way I can save you ‘cause I need to be saved too.
I’m finally good at goodbyes. #newlife #goodbyetome

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